October is known as the Month of Fall Leaves, Autumn Breeze, Cute
Sweaters, and Cuddle Weather. But October has grown to have a
different meaning for me. October is the month where I say good-bye to
the woman that I use to be. Up until now I have thrown a pity party
almost every day since the ending of my relationship with THE Ex. You
know… the ONE I really loved and who I thought truly adored me. The
one I thought that I couldn’t live without. The one who I KNEW I would
marry, bare his kids and live happily ever after in our four bedroom
house in the middle of the city. I did NOT desire a white picket
fence. I just wanted to live cute and comfortably with the man of my
dreams. Boy, did GOD have a different plan for me.
When the break UP happened, there were so many chances for us to
rekindle the flame. The ENEMY fought hard to get me to go back into
the whirlwind and vicious cycle of loving a man who did NOT deserve
my love. Let alone my time, effort, energy, trust, and
even my Phone Number. That’s right; I ended every form of contact.
Because I knew, that like all the other times, he’d “promise to
change”, “make things right”, and “Become the man I needed him to be”
and he WOULD, for the first week of us reuniting ; But just like
gravity, it’ll all come crashing down again. And because I had heard
it all before, I made the FINAL decision to leave the pieces on the
floor; pick up the part of my heart I had left; stuff it in my side
bag, and move ON. Eight years later. More break ups than I care to
share. More promises than I care to even extend my pinky out for. With
the break up came an overwhelming surge of Pain. I was BROKEN.
BRUISED.BEAT UP. I felt like I had been jumped by a group of mobs.
Honey, I had no fight left in me. I was outdone. But there’s one thing
I knew for sure, it was truly time to LET GO AND LET GOD!
That is when he started to Rebuild. You see, the enemy knows that with
every single season comes the opportunity for New life. New love. New
freedom. New relationships. And A New level of anointing from God. So
he pulled every card that he could to keep me in that TOXIC
situationship. But Honey, I am so Glad GOD intervened! This is not
some story about how a woman suffered from a broken heart and GOD
healed her immediately from the hurt. (Although that IS POSSIBLE!)
This is more of a personal testimony of his healing. I had truly lost
ALL hope. I lost the fun, loving, witty girl that I used to be. I
Allowed my single season to become a burial site. It literally felt
like I was showing up to my own funeral every day. I WAS MISERABLE! I
couldn’t believe that GOD had allowed my life to get so low. One day,
as I was doing my normal funeral like service routines, the holy
spirit begin to speak to me. He sent people to minister to me. He
started reminding of who I used to be. He began to provide me with
clarity. And Comfort. And Love. And Peace. And Understanding. And just
like that The UnweddedYetSustained Movement became my reality. Before
this post. Before this blog. Before the Instagram and Twitter were
created, I was LOST. Like many of you, I had allowed my identity to be
placed in someone other than CHRIST. But on this day, October 2, 2014
I will be holding my final Funeral service.
Eulogy:
Janay Keel was a gift to her Parents Ms. Keel and Mr. Dunmore on
September 24, 1989. Ms. Keel was born in Fort Lauderdale, FL at a
local public hospital. Her time of delivery was at approximately
8:30pm. She leaves behind two brothers and a nephew-pet French Bull
Dog. Ms. Keel passed away as a result of broken heartedness and
self-pity.
September 24, 1989 - October 2, 2014
On October 3, 2014 Ms. Janay Keel was born again as The creator of The
UnweddedYetSustained Movement. I am a B6 Woman,
Bashful-Blissful-Bravely-Bold-
woman.
Acknowledgements:
Thank you for your time, I realize that this journey isn’t easy and
sometimes the last thing we want to hear is another person telling us
what they did to get through. I know that it seems like you will not
make it. Like this heart ache is too much to bear. You feel sad,
unloved, and alone. But if you stick with me during this journey, I
promise GOD will renew the Queen in you. You are a B6 Woman too. I
believe in the GOD of miracles! October is the Month of Healing and
Happiness being restored! And like me, I believe that God is going to
Birth something new and refreshing in YOU! This movement is more than
just another hoax to get likes, comments, and followers. This is the
beginning to the end. It is a movement that celebrates the ending of
Self-Pity and the beginning of HEALING.
Cheers to Being Single Again && Loving every minute of it,
Janay Keel
Please Share this with your friends and family via email or Social
Media. Follow me on Twitter @TheUYSMovement & Instagram
@Unweddedyetsusained && Please Take The UYS Daily Single Woman
Pledge!
Sweaters, and Cuddle Weather. But October has grown to have a
different meaning for me. October is the month where I say good-bye to
the woman that I use to be. Up until now I have thrown a pity party
almost every day since the ending of my relationship with THE Ex. You
know… the ONE I really loved and who I thought truly adored me. The
one I thought that I couldn’t live without. The one who I KNEW I would
marry, bare his kids and live happily ever after in our four bedroom
house in the middle of the city. I did NOT desire a white picket
fence. I just wanted to live cute and comfortably with the man of my
dreams. Boy, did GOD have a different plan for me.
When the break UP happened, there were so many chances for us to
rekindle the flame. The ENEMY fought hard to get me to go back into
the whirlwind and vicious cycle of loving a man who did NOT deserve
my love. Let alone my time, effort, energy, trust, and
even my Phone Number. That’s right; I ended every form of contact.
Because I knew, that like all the other times, he’d “promise to
change”, “make things right”, and “Become the man I needed him to be”
and he WOULD, for the first week of us reuniting ; But just like
gravity, it’ll all come crashing down again. And because I had heard
it all before, I made the FINAL decision to leave the pieces on the
floor; pick up the part of my heart I had left; stuff it in my side
bag, and move ON. Eight years later. More break ups than I care to
share. More promises than I care to even extend my pinky out for. With
the break up came an overwhelming surge of Pain. I was BROKEN.
BRUISED.BEAT UP. I felt like I had been jumped by a group of mobs.
Honey, I had no fight left in me. I was outdone. But there’s one thing
I knew for sure, it was truly time to LET GO AND LET GOD!
That is when he started to Rebuild. You see, the enemy knows that with
every single season comes the opportunity for New life. New love. New
freedom. New relationships. And A New level of anointing from God. So
he pulled every card that he could to keep me in that TOXIC
situationship. But Honey, I am so Glad GOD intervened! This is not
some story about how a woman suffered from a broken heart and GOD
healed her immediately from the hurt. (Although that IS POSSIBLE!)
This is more of a personal testimony of his healing. I had truly lost
ALL hope. I lost the fun, loving, witty girl that I used to be. I
Allowed my single season to become a burial site. It literally felt
like I was showing up to my own funeral every day. I WAS MISERABLE! I
couldn’t believe that GOD had allowed my life to get so low. One day,
as I was doing my normal funeral like service routines, the holy
spirit begin to speak to me. He sent people to minister to me. He
started reminding of who I used to be. He began to provide me with
clarity. And Comfort. And Love. And Peace. And Understanding. And just
like that The UnweddedYetSustained Movement became my reality. Before
this post. Before this blog. Before the Instagram and Twitter were
created, I was LOST. Like many of you, I had allowed my identity to be
placed in someone other than CHRIST. But on this day, October 2, 2014
I will be holding my final Funeral service.
Eulogy:
Janay Keel was a gift to her Parents Ms. Keel and Mr. Dunmore on
September 24, 1989. Ms. Keel was born in Fort Lauderdale, FL at a
local public hospital. Her time of delivery was at approximately
8:30pm. She leaves behind two brothers and a nephew-pet French Bull
Dog. Ms. Keel passed away as a result of broken heartedness and
self-pity.
September 24, 1989 - October 2, 2014
On October 3, 2014 Ms. Janay Keel was born again as The creator of The
UnweddedYetSustained Movement. I am a B6 Woman,
Bashful-Blissful-Bravely-Bold-
woman.
Acknowledgements:
Thank you for your time, I realize that this journey isn’t easy and
sometimes the last thing we want to hear is another person telling us
what they did to get through. I know that it seems like you will not
make it. Like this heart ache is too much to bear. You feel sad,
unloved, and alone. But if you stick with me during this journey, I
promise GOD will renew the Queen in you. You are a B6 Woman too. I
believe in the GOD of miracles! October is the Month of Healing and
Happiness being restored! And like me, I believe that God is going to
Birth something new and refreshing in YOU! This movement is more than
just another hoax to get likes, comments, and followers. This is the
beginning to the end. It is a movement that celebrates the ending of
Self-Pity and the beginning of HEALING.
Cheers to Being Single Again && Loving every minute of it,
Janay Keel
Please Share this with your friends and family via email or Social
Media. Follow me on Twitter @TheUYSMovement & Instagram
@Unweddedyetsusained && Please Take The UYS Daily Single Woman
Pledge!
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