How I Survived ICU....

Society questions us constantly! Where are you working? When are you going back to school? How is that job going for you? You don't speak to so and so anymore? Why did you end your past relationship? When are you going to get married & have kids? Are you even looking for a new car? The questions are almost never ending! Our families are asking questions, our friends are quite curious and honestly, if you're anything like me, it causes you to start questioning as well. Leaving you in a state of constant agony and worry that you aren't where you're suppose to be. I want you to just stop and think about your own life and the questions currently bombarding your mind (pause for a minute and actually think). Now I want you to take another minute and think about this question carefully... Where am I? Ponder upon it and when you have the answer, I want you to write it down. Now I want you to get this: In order to understand where You are, you have to understand where you've been.

You see, three months ago I checked myself into life's ICU. I was in a state of mental exhaustion, spiritual doom, and my body was to weak to take the pressures of life. I had just gotten out of the eight year relationship with my ex and my life was in complete shambles. And if you read anything else that I've written or posted you'll know that it's NO secret that I still have a few pieces of my heart sitting in his old apartment. I was so broken, I really felt like I was beyond repair. So I completed my admission forms, placed on my hospital gown, and begin my journey towards death. You see when you check into ICU, there is a likelihood that you won't make it back out. ICU means I have tried everything to regain my normal state of mind and I STILL can't. ICU means that I've lost all power and ability to return to mitosis on my own. ICU means that without the help of the Doctor I am NOT going to make it! ICU can sometimes also mean that I've fought all I can I fight and I'm so ready and willing to throw in the towel of life. I wanted to end it all. I had truly lost my MIND! It seemed like I was drifting in a world where no one understood the severity of my depression. Quite frankly, No one even knew! I felt alone. I felt torn. I felt used and abused. I felt worthless. My self esteem hit an all time low. My anxiety was through the roof. I did not know what to do. Let alone purpose, vision, and goals. I could have dared someone to ask a question during that time because I had a good answer! Where am I? I am in ICU! Where am I? I am at the end of my rope! Where am I? I have placed on my clothes and causally entered into my death bed. Let me tell you about the man that we serve! He will allow you to go into life's ICU so that you can realize that HE is the ultimate Life Support! Hallelujah! He will allow you to throw the towel in and prepare for your own death, So that he can show you who provided you life in the first place!! Oh sis I don't think you're hearing me! You have to allow yourself to sit in your own pity for a few moments. You have to allow yourself to grieve for a few moments. You have to take off your cape and put your gown on for JUST a few moments! Because that is when your doctor, your king, your ruler, your way maker, your purpose filler, your blood thicker becomes your soul winner! And so I was in Life's ICU but only for a Few moments!! He's not going to keep you where you are! You will rise again! You will not die! He that created a GOOD work in you shall finish it! Philippians 1:6. Let me tell you something! You may have fallen off! You may have given in! You may have not know WHO, What, when or where you are but believe me God does! So when they ask you: Where Are You? I want you to be real and tell them: I am in Life's ICU, but I know that my God is going to bring me through!

I can tell you that because I survived it! I may not be where I wanna be or where they I think I ought to be But Thank GOD that I am in the perfect position to receive his blessings! 

I pray that you will not dwell in your gown! But that you will Keep it on long enough for your savior to come in and place back on your crown AND your cape! Amen! 

Love & Understanding, 

Janay Keel 

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